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i had a good weekend.

on friday i went to school..fuck that. im wanna quit.
friday night i drove brad around to find some "coinstar" thing so he could get money back for all of his quarters..then we went to fireworks and sara, dylan, eric, and cilla showed up.  we hung out.  then i left to go see maggie at her aunts house.  i sent her flowers to her work. i hope she liked them.  we hung out then i went back to fire works and owen was there, so we talked..looks like i finally have people who wanna be in a band..we want it to sound like The Bled meets As I Lay Dying.  good deal..then i went home early..brad was acting really pissed off.

saturday i woke up and went to claytons and we talked music.  i miss hanging out with him.  we listened t othe new Preacher album. great stuff.  then i went to maggie's aunts house so we could get our hair did.  then we went to maggies house and got ready for sadies.  after like and hour and a half she was ready.  we ate at garfields.  it was good. then we went to the dance. its was ok. david and i dance with each other and we threwdown a little bit.  i wanted them to play milkshake but they didnt.  oh well. then we went to claytons.  after that we took maggie and cilla home, and david and i went to his house and we went to sleep.

sunday i was supposed to go home, but my dad called and said i didnt need to after i left davids and i went to maggies.  i helped her little brother move all these huge piles of sticks..it sucked, but ben and i talked so it was cool.  then maggie, ben, myself, and a few of his buds went to Happy Joes to eat.  then we went back to maggies and hung out..i had a good day

i woke up this morning and my throat hurts really fucking bad...

  i would still frame this moment to obtain beauty forever.
               i would crawl through thorns to possess autumn.
                                     to kiss, to hold, to touch your love

im going to sadies now..im happy

no one fucking leaves me any comments anymore..bullshit..

last night was a good show, except the nu mosh shit really sucked..i wanted to dance..

I used to make the light shine for you
the sun has left my sky
velvet walls surround my sorrows
I’ve sacrificed my pride
                       you’re giving up on me
I’ve laid myself to sleep tonight
I know you’ve played out everything in your mind
and now you throw it all away
a shattered memory that you would stay
through thick and thin with me
                      you’re giving up on me
and when you feel the pain, I’m wishing I could stay
how can I say I love you back
you never made me happy
you’ve laid yourself to sleep
I never said this wouldn’t hurt
                      you gave up everything
I never said I’d give it back
I know you’ll never change
                      I won’t be good enough for you
I know, you’ll make it through
I’ll never be around to see

those are rather fitting...

last night i went to Moline High and watched Goodbye, Annabelle Lee.  very good melodic hardcore.  Luke, Brad, Nathaniel and myself all danced.  They covered Memphis Will Be Laid To Waste, and all four of us sang it with them..good good time.  then we all went to Theo's, and they were closing, so we went to the Omelette Shoppe, and if we wanted to stay, we had to pay a $3 minimum, so we went to Claytons..i stopped by Ashley Redmans house, and of course, as soon as i walked in, she and maggie walked out, that made me feel like a person.. i got some hair dye, and we were gonna go home,but we went to Claytons and i put a chunk of bleach in my hair..i dont like it..i left it in for 3 hours, and its still orangyish.  then Brad and i left and went to his house to sleep. 

i woke up this morning and went home to take a shower.  then i came to UT and got yelled at.  fucking sweet..i can already tell today is going to suck. 

tonight is Since By Man..i was gonna go with maggie, but she doesnt want to go with me, so fuck. 

i've got nothing left to say..im distraught..

looks like im spending Valentine's Day alone..again..and again..

                       i understand that love is non-existant..

ok..

last night fucking owned..

With Honor..i'd never heard them before, but they were really sweet.
Himsa..  Wow..they had two of the best guitarists i had ever heard..their singer was sweet too.. AND, to make it even better, the guitarists and bassist had super long hair..it was fucking funny and rockin
As I Lay Dying... holy fucking shit...i got to sing six times..some guy came up to me afterwards and was like "dude, you seriously have the most amazing scream"..that was nice...whoa..
Sworn Enemy.. hahahahahaha..theyre so lame.  it was fun as shit though.  Matt, Brad, Seth, and myself all danced our asses off.  I got kicked in the throat, but that comes with it.  Clayton and I held hands and danced, which is fun.  Great, great show..

I guess Himsa and As I Lay Dying are gonna be at the Lulac on Feb. 23, which will be amazing. 

Thursday is Since By Man

Um..this is for you..FUCK YOU..dont be a bitch and freak out about things i dont fucking have control over..oh yea, and um..i know about you...i know everything..keep trying..you'll win...keep trying to get with my girlfriend..we both..well wait..all three of us know you'll win..

I guess Maggie doesnt wanna go to Sadies with me anymore for Valentines Day..mhm..



i've had enough of this. you're all the same to me. i want to be alone.

                          i dont exist to you
fuck you because i loved you
fuck you for loving it too

identityCrsis88:  would you like me if you weren't with sam?
morphlneseason: yeah
morphlneseason: id maybe have a crush on you

                        something like that

                                                                      ...end me.